• Ali Isaac

I Will Know… | A Poem

Updated: Feb 27


Image © Ed Isaacs Dreamstime

As a child I knew much more

than adults gave me credit for.

Even at the age of three

it was not difficult to see

the endless lies and heavy despair

due to Mum's drinking and Dad's affair.


Every night I heard them shout,

Knowing what it was all about.

In their room behind closed doors

thinking they shut out the shrieks and the roars.

What private trysts did they keep? Did words of love from their hearts drip-seep? Yet they never divorced; Perhaps the marriage was forced to tie them infinitely together, whatever the internal, marital weather. The scandal of separation would have picked clean their bones in a neighbourhood where one must keep up with the Jones.


Whatever must the neighbours have thought?

I don't remember, though perhaps I ought.

I was only a child; what could I do?

Perhaps no one ever knew

what went on inside our house,

for I never told, being quiet as a mouse.

The tales never escaped my parents’ lips

when they left the house on their secretive trips. Seems reputation was never considered, when they met with their lovers each drab, dreary day.

And so with this hypocrisy I grew up, and now I drink from the self-same cup. My wife’s love is no longer mine so I drown my sorrow in cheap bottles of wine.

At night I hear my children cry to sleep as I lie in bed, brain alcohol-fuddled deep. I vaguely hear my wife’s accusations and respond through a dizzy numb drunken sensation. Now I know how my parents must have felt, and accept readily the blow fate has dealt.

Is it true that children take after their parents before them? Perhaps when my children mature, I will know then…

#familylife #affairs #childhood #alcoholabuse #poetry #poem #drunk #alcohol


thank you for visiting

aliisaacstoryteller

  • White Facebook Icon

About Ali

I recently graduated from Maynooth University with a First Class Honours Bachelor of Arts degree in English and History with a Special Interest in Irish Cultural Heritage. Here is where I write about my passions...

 

Read More

 

Join My Mailing List